by Kaitlin Armstrong
"Delusions are inexhaustible, I vow to transform them" were the words I repeated in my head when I felt unable to sit another minute longer in the pain that was my old buried wounds, finally able to reveal themselves.
"Delusions are inexhaustible, I vow to transform them" were the words I repeated in my head when I felt unable to sit another minute longer in the pain that was my old buried wounds, finally able to reveal themselves.
I write you all, my beautiful yoga family, from such a place of utter tenderness and from a love I did not know was possible. After my 8 days of complete silence and stillness, I have awakened to the harm of my thoughts that run deep... the years of belittling and degrading myself, presented at the centre of the universe ... also known as my sit cushion. I have uncovered the pieces of my heart that were fractured and locked. I see the only thing that is real — this moment — and I cherish it deeply as I step back into the world that is overwhelmingly bright and full of noise.
I walk with ease towards myself, every breath, and I smile with an awareness I don't understand (and I know I am not meant to). I see the ahimsa that exists as the basis of my cellular chemistry and the layers of mental lashing that have prevented me from seeing this truth. Our nature is un-harming by creation, it’s our relentless mind that abuses our will and our right to be whole and all loving.
From the bottom of my heart, can I ask that you to make no excuses, to sit every day in silence and stillness, to witness how much we live separate from ourselves and, in turn, from each other? Practice fully breathing in right now — what you see, hear, smell, touch and feel. Practice in a way that strengthens your ability to truly appreciate the day when you will take your last breath and, in the meantime, celebrate each new inhale as it blesses you with another opportunity to awaken to the unstoppable and ever wonderful joy that is this life.
Life and death are of extreme importance
Time passes swiftly and opportunity is lost
Let us awaken
Awaken
Do not squander your life — Duggan
I love you all.
xoxo,
xoxo,
Kaitlin Armstrong
CYA-RYTGOLD
CYA-RYTGOLD