AwakeningI was brought up in a very spiritual way. My parents did not force us to go to church or any of that. We were brought up Christians, loving and respecting Christ, not fearing Him. I never really felt the need to pray as I always had discussions with Jesus. You see, I always thought He was my buddy, and somehow confiding in Him became my spiritual time.
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In 2013, I went through an emotional trauma, which caused me to find myself in a deep hole of depression and shock. Nothing could comfort me at that time. If I slept I dreamt of the incident and if I stayed awake, I couldn’t stop thinking– nowhere to run, to hide and no way to escape it. Life gave me no choice but to confront my fears. The only thing I knew is that I enjoyed my chats with my buddy Jesus.
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I decided to travel. It was a way to escape. I couldn’t stand seeing my family and friends sad because of me. I thought traveling would stop me from hurting and, if not, well then at least I’d get some me time. I travelled for 10 months. I went from Spain to Egypt, Greece, Istanbul, Amsterdam… It was amazing! From yoga to beach to hiking and, of course, I ate like there was no tomorrow. After all, I needed to indulge.
I meditated on a daily base; at times I’d meditate all day. I know the meditations were a huge help for me. All along I asked for light– to help me heal and rise– and I got light. I asked for love, and I got love everywhere I went. People had so much love and warmth to offer me. I felt so much love and I felt the light within me get bigger and brighter every moment. As I gave love, I received more; it was an exchange of energy somehow.
I asked to purify inside out, to be worthy of shedding pure love and light onto others. That had become my goal. The feeling was so amazing; I couldn’t keep it just for myself. I needed to share because it was clear, at that point, that my goal was to become a lighthouse for people around me. I wanted to offer them the help I got when I was down. I was rising and rising every day and, as I was rising, my consciousness was rising as well. I started awakening. What amazed me is how different my perspective was with higher consciousness.
August 2014, I decided it was time to go back home. At that time, I was missing Montreal so much. I had done what I had to do, travelled and explored but home was still home.
December 2014, my brother and I attended a Tony Robbins seminar in Florida, at which Tony spoke about the Oneness University and how it’s about divine light. Then he gave us a blessing, which is the divine light flowing through him and onto others. I can tell you that I felt light flowing through me that day and I realized then “ ask and you shall receive”.
March 2015, I packed my bags and went to India where I stayed at the Oneness University for one month. All technology was put away and students had to stay in silence, at all times, to avoid distraction and grow in our journey. We had lectures 3 times per day and all kinds of meditations and processes at the temple and, of course, time to reflect.
That month was enough time to start the internal purification. I got initiated as a blessing giver, which meant I could transfer divine light or higher power light onto others. I really did receive what I asked for, but first I had to accept, keep my faith and surrender to what was happening, instead of fighting it. I learnt how to stay in the present moment and how to meditate even when there is noise around. I also learnt that when something bothers me in others, it’s really a reflection of my own issues, which I am denying to see in myself. I found myself, once again, and connected on a much deeper level. I gained authenticity and integrity and, best of all, I accept and surrender so whatever the issue is, it now flows through me instead of being blocked with resistance.
It is amazing how fast the meditations helped me heal and grow. I have a monthly follow up from India, a weekly group meeting and a daily practice. My growth continues every day. I learnt to fall in love with myself, to accept every situation that happens to me because it is there to either help me grow or push me further along my path. I learnt that life happens for me and not to me.
Now, when I give blessing to someone, I feel the energy flow right through me and it is the purest love I’ve ever felt. I know now what pure love, which doesn’t cost anything, feels like. Once you feel pure love you cannot justify letting lower conscious get in the way. Once I tasted this quality of life and how living in the present moment is the most amazing gift I could offer myself, I couldn’t compromise it by looking back or overthinking the future.
Love & Light always…
Liza Zaki